Having someone , you don’t have to show .. they know exactly where it hurts . I wish i still had this . I loved him and he meant more than the world to me . Reminiscing , I still can’t figure out where we went wrong , or how I would’ve fixed it . Today makes it 3 years that I’ve known him . In those 3 years my whole life changed and shit happened that I will never forget . Everything that happens , ALWAYS happens for a reason . Good or bad . Broken promises , lies , other girls , and all those raw emotions rolled into one whirlwind of stress . In the end , i learned a lot from that relationship , Till this day i still notice shit that I should’ve handled different ,but think about it now and how strong i am that i made it through that situation . Any other person probably wouldn’t of came out of it as stable as I am . But sometimes i wonder . .. was it all real ? I know the love was real , but did we only hold on for so long for other reasons or was it real . The fact that no one could ever and will never , make me feel the way he did . The pure happiness that i expressed within the time i was with him , still amazes me till this day . But my question now is .. should i still have this picture of Me and his happy ending ? With me in my white dress him in his tux , holding hands speaking sacred words infront of my closes friends and family .. Or should i let it go .. accept the fact that everything that happened was in the past and it happened for a reason . But they also say if you really loved someone , you never stop . And thats one thing i can admit .. I never stopped loving you . A little peice of me wants you to read this .. but then again im not sure if you will ever see this or know that this exists. . but Boobaby , i still love you and always will . I can accept the fact that maybe right now we aren’t meant to be together .. but I don’t think I’ll be able to accept the fact that i won’t spend the rest of my life with you . No one will ever replace you in my heart . Ever .
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J. Cole x Lebron James
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